I see you, girl.
You sit in a room full of people, trying to be invisible. You struggled to even bring yourself to the event because you knew how it was going to turn out. You may be fine in the moment, things would seem okay, but the moment you leave, you knew it would start. You would replay every moment…every word spoken…every action taken. You would analyze everything you said, and over-analyze, until it drove you crazy.
You don’t want to feel like this. You don’t want to replay things in your head. You just want to enjoy being in the company of others. You want to chat and have a good time just like everyone else, but you know that this isn’t how things work for you.
Once you arrive home, you can’t sleep. Sleep only makes things worse because every time you close your eyes it’s all you can think about. You’ve replayed things and you’ve realized that maybe you have said some things you shouldn’t have, or maybe someone mistook something you said, and now you’re worrying. You’re worrying about what others think of you, about if you upset someone, or if you said the wrong things.
You want to distance yourself.
I see you, girl. Your life feels like it is a mess right now. You feel like everything would just be easier if you could distance yourself, avoiding the confrontations and awkwardness brought by being social with others.
Guess what…You Are Not Alone.
The struggle is real.
You are worthy…You are loved…You deserve to be here.
You are not stupid. You are not awkward. You are not boring. You deserve to be here.
Worry can not change our past or our future. Worry can only hurt our present. What is done is done. Don’t dwell on what you said, what you should’ve said, or how you responded. Think about the future and all of the wonderful things ahead.
OMG I LOVE THIS!!!! That last paragraph was really powerful, too. I hope people with anxiety realize they aren’t crazy and they aren’t alone! Great post!
Thanks Jeni!
I just love this post. I have anxiety myself so yes the struggle can be real!
Thanks Dana! It’s definitely a struggle at times.
It be like that some times.. Can’t imagine how many people deal with it. Not many talk about it.
You are right. Not a lot of people talk about it. I wanted to bring a little light to what some go through. I hope it helps at least one person to see that they are not alone. 😉
I struggle with anxiety too. Sometimes, it’s so hard to stop reliving that one comment/scene in my mind – the whole woulda, coulda, shoulda is enough to keep me up at night.
Yes, girl, yes! I totally get that! Just remember that you are not alone and YOU GOT THIS!!!!
Wow, this description fits me to a t. It can be sad and lonely a lot of the time. But I have learned to live with it and concentrate on the happy times in my live.
You are not alone in this. Just remember that YOU GOT THIS! I’m finding that changing my diet and taking vitamins (basically healing my stomach) has helped with certain aspects. I still struggle, but accepting it and dealing with it is a huge step. YOU GOT THIS!
Thank you so much for sharing this with us!
You’re welcome!
I love this! I deal with anxiety everyday raising two children who both have a rare disease and autism. It’s a struggle and I tend to worry about their future, and question if I am making the right decisions for them, but I try to remind myself that I can’t control everything and I need to just do the best I can… Thanks for the reminder!
You’re welcome! You are not alone, and YOU GOT THIS! <3
I sometimes have anxiety, but not often. I do tend to just close up.
Thank you so much for sharing this! <3 I agree with Jeni, that last paragraph especially is so powerful!
Very good post. Anxiety is such a shapeshifter in itself, and presents differently for every individual. …And as much as we/people hear “you are not alone,” it still feels… like exactly the opposite.
I am so glad that I don’t have to deal with this. I do have a friend who has to deal with it.
We all cope with anxiety at some point in our lives, definitely good to bring the topic to light. Especially in tough times like these.
Anxiety is so exhausting! I struggle and so does my son. Thank you for sharing this post.